backwards or forwards?


well i found my camera again.
i also passed my GED tests.
and i started on the new painting project in honor of my Bride.


so yay progress.

downside? i'm sick with the bloody pandemical flu, n1h1.

how a hermit managed to catch such a disease?

BLAME THE CHILDREN.

yes.



in the process of helping my younger brother recover, i in turn caught it as well.

now the whole household is ridden with disease.
i feel trapped more than usual.

i'm supposed to go out of town for halloween, but now i'm not sure how that's gonna happen.


i feel like some force is trying to isolate me bit by bit.

first taking away my internets for a week.
now i'm sick.

what else??


>_>

i blame delirium for my paranoia this time.


but i just don't know.
my mind is fogged.


i lack presence more and more.

and i'm not just speaking of being sick, either.




i am sick.
but not just physically.

i don't know how much longer i can keep up the charade.


october should be over soon.
but the ghost will never rest.



these merciless nights gotta end soon.
i dread wearing this body much longer.